This is the faith complex.

It feels as though I have hit a dead end in life. So this is what it's like to be a deadbeat...

You see, since I graduated from high school, and even long before that, I've been asking my work to roster me for more shifts other than a measy four hour shift a week. But do they listen? No. Cue some fifteen year old asking for more shifts, and what do you know? The following week their roster looks much more exciting.

This really shits me. I've finished school, I can work during the day, but yet here I am stuck at home most the time! Sure, if somebody chucks a sickie, I get called in and go to work. But I don't feel as if I deserve to be that person who has to rely on others 'falling sick' (I should really be saying 'not being bothered to come in for work').

So I don't get work, meaning I earn barely enough money -_- I NEED MONEY! What makes it worse is that I've been applying for jobs these past few weeks and I still don't have any offers.

But today I applied for Dominos and Pizza Hut as a driver, as I heard they're in high demand. Just when I thought I might get a lucky break, I find out my car is royally fucked -_- My head gasket fucked up, and mum is hesitant to fix it as she believes it's MY fault. Yeah, because it's MY fault the deadbeat mechanics she sent my car to TWICE for the same problem didn't fix up the problem EACH TIME MY CAR WAS THERE, making my car deteriorate even more. So get fucked it's my fault.

She wants to sell my car, and not buy me a new one. That idea can also get fucked. I need a car. I hate using my mums bomb. My mother is an incompetant driver, and that shows with the massive dint on the side which doesn't look good on my part when I'm sitting in that drivers seat. Which may I add, is on the odd occasion, as she NEVER let's me use her fucking car. Why? Because she's always 'busy' going to some stupid place with it -_- So the dumb whore moves me half an hour away from everything, and expects me NOT to have a car? Idi u tri picke materine, jebes mi sve kurva.

Moving onto yet another topic which serves no good news whatsoever, HSC results.
Yeah that's right, tomorrow, the 16th of December, is the day which determines how successful the fruits of my labour will be. The following day, the 17th, will determine how successful my future will be. That day I will be receiving my ATAR: Australian Tertiary Admissions Rank. HOMO.

So I signed up for the ever so convenient SMS service the Board of Studies offered to the slowly mentally deteriorating bunch of 17 and 18 year olds so that they can essentially have a mental breakdown as quickly as possible. Results are released at 6am, I plan on being awake at 5am just so I can have time to wake up. If I saw my results in my sleepy state, I would probably start mistaking my fail bands as band 6's and then get happy, but then realise they're not band 6's, but band 3's, and essentially jump out of my window. And yes, that would hurt, my room is on the second floor.

Ahh Avenged Sevenfold makes me feel better :)
(And yes, I still think they're awesome. Piss off all you 'hardcore' kids, e.g. ALEX MARSHALL!)

Anyway, some good things now. Got heaps of parties coming up :) Julia's 18th this friday, Joe and Paul's 18th on saturday, as well as Thy Art Is Murder =\ Oh what a dilemma. To go to the two parties, or to a gig that I've been looking forward to for quite a while now? Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I guess a good thing about not having a car, I can get my mum to drive me around now, meaning I can drinkkkkkkkkkkkk :) Yeah boy.

Christmas is coming up, and because work hasn't given me sufficient shifts, DON'T EXPECT CHRISTMAS PRESENTS! Sorry guys. I'm not expecting any presents either, so it's all good =P Honestly the only thing I really wanted was an e-tag so I could cut my commute time down drastically BUT a) Mum thinks I'm too old for gifts and b) I basically now don't have a car for the e-tag to go into -_-

There's a Facebook group; All I want for Christmas is a good ATAR and good HSC marks. 100% me. Please Santa Clause, please make my Christmas wish come true.

Of course, there always is something else I would like.. but I know I won't get it :) Well I shouldn't say 'it', as 'it' is actually an animate object. :)
And none of you will know what this 'it' is :) Don't even bother asking, I won't tell you :)

OH MY FUCKING ALLAH
- (li) Zommiieee (li) says:
*brb gonna shave :)
   slut          vana.     ∞ says:
*NO
*NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
*NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
*FUCK OFF ZOMAYA
*DONT YOU DARE
That just happened. I'M GOING NUTS HERE :@ ZOMAYAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!
- (li) Zommiieee (li) says:
*its too annoying
   slut          vana.     ∞ says:
*but it makes you look manly and god like ;D
- (li) Zommiieee (li) says:
*ROFL
*god like in what way? and sif i dont look manly hmph
*i look...boy-ly
*(A)
*14yr old boy-like
*rofl
   slut          vana.     ∞ says:
*god like in a "OMG FUCK ME NOW" way
- (li) Zommiieee (li) says:
*as if hmph
*sigh* WHEN WILL YOU EVER LISTEN TO ME MATHEW?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!

NB: I love a man with stubble. Not a beard, not a mow, just stubble. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM :) Which is why I hate it when this guy tells me he is going to shave! haha

HAHA now he's got a vote on his personal message, I shall keep you posted on the results :)

Anyway. Enough about that.
I find it quite hilarious that James can manage to find ASIAN music for his car, pump that while driving and actually make the other motorists laugh! LAST NIGHT WAS EPIC. I could not stop laughing the whole way to Chippo. Oh and kudos to Endy for the free chips last night x) Free food always tastes better than paid for food.. or perhaps Endy jizzed in my fries without letting me know? Who knows with Maccas gronks these days :)

This reminded me of the time Tammy licked one of the nuggets in a bitchy customer's 6 pack happy meal, so due to the mothers inconsiderate actions towards us staff, the kid got to enjoy Tammy's saliva on their nugget. HAHAHA!

Oh oh, more recently, FUCKING ASIANS SHOULDN'T GO TO MACCAS. Okay that's a tad mean or racist yes but HONESTLY HOW DUMB CAN YOU GET? The dumbest thing happened. This asian asked for a choc shake, which we gave to them. But then they complained that it wasn't chocolate. Ashleigh was like "Well, we pressed the chocolate button on the machine so obviously you have a chocolate shake." Then he was like "UHH I'M DA CUSTOHHHMEUURRR" so she's like "And I'm the manager, I would know what products I sell." HAHAHAHA

FUCKING ZOMAYA even though EVERYONE voted no to him shaving, he is still gunna do it :( You look less hot shaved!

I think I have milked dry the possible topic of discussions for this blog, so until next time, over and out :)